'So...what's the plan now?'

I am officially a struggling musician.

I finished my last few shifts of work and breathed a sigh of relief. Exhaustion conquered my aching feet but my unmotivated brain became wide awake. I didn't sleep that night.

I bloody love goals. I enjoy setting tasks and completing them. It keeps me on track. Focused. I believe I can't move forward unless I have some sort of progress bar. The industry is fickle and I must fold myself into a seemingly impossible shape to get through it. Like 'Hole In The Wall'. That was a brilliant programme. Of course, they were a little less prepared than I am. I have as much time as I need to plan ahead, not three seconds. I've written down some ideas to get me going like contacting venues and recording some stuff. I am assuming it will be a slow start but I'll keep myself occupied.

Unfortunately, I am no manager. Phone calls scare me and bombarding people with emails about me me me is honestly painful. There are so many talented musicians out there. How do I put myself out there without sounding like the most egotistical knob in the world? It really is a balancing act and I still need to work at it. Besides, it seems to be getting more and more difficult for singer/songwriters to get gigs. All people want are cover artists and tribute bands which I shall discuss in another blog. Far too much to talk about on that subject.

I'll admit this is all a bit daunting. I remember driving home one afternoon in December when something hit me. I'm not a kid anymore. I can't rely on my parents forever (although I know that they would help me every step of the way bless them) and I need to make some important decisions for myself. When I was younger, my age was a key factor to why I got so much support. I would be offered quite a few opportunities and I didn't really need to put much effort in. It's not everyday a 15 year old could pull off a two hour set. People ask how old I am now and being 18, they expect so much more. Rightly so to be honest. College helped me understand that. I'm very dramatic I know.

No one can deter me away from this though. Once I found out people could actually make a career for themselves with music, it's all I've wanted to do. Yes, I know it's hard. Everything is. But I'll have a good crack at it.

p.s if you want an EP I have more now so please get in touch oooo weeee

Also I kept getting lost so the Rushtons gave me a satnav I can't thank you enough hope you don't mind me posting about this oOOPS.